That's how I feel about it. What do you think?

So this thing is a really cool test and all of you who read this (there's like 4 of you) and take it. It's only one question so it's not that hard or time consuming.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Enchantedsorrows

From the city to the Sabbath

Briefly, briefly, through the mists of the afternoon rain, I can see them all gathered. Etty Hillesum, William Blake, Hadewijch and Meister Eikhart, Lao-Tzu and Chuang Tzu, Changing Woman and Jesus. Just now it's Etty who reaches out from that invisible place within. "You too" she whispers; "You are one of us." Her words frighten me, have always frightened me, exhilirated as I am with the possibilities that beckon. I can see her radiant standing next to St. Benedict and -who knows? Jalalludin Rumi and Henry Thoreau. they reach out throug her, seeking to claim me, to pull me in from this warm home, from this most livable of all American cities, from this richest of all earth's countries, even from the great globe itself. I know she wants to set me wandering. Homeless, maginalized, mad with a clarity that seeks tp burn through the dark cities of this world. Mad to reveal the glory within, she reaches out to me mark me. She covers my forehead with a cross of ash.

-From Work and the Life of the Spirit anthology

Magical iTunes 8 ball

I encountered this on Patti's blog, and she found it on one of her friend's blogs... it's called "Magical iTunes 8 Ball!" How it works: you place iTunes on random and then you ask it a question and it should answer it with the song. Lots and lots of fun. If the answer doesn't make any sense then you skip it and go to the next one. No hitting the next button over and over again until you get the song you want. That's a big no-no.

1. What is missing from my life?
Nothing - Jeremy Camp

2. Will I find love?
Dream on - Aerosmith (ooooh... burn)

3. Will I beccome rich?
Mona Lisa - Grant-lee philips (I guess I'll have to produce something like the mona lisa to ever be rich)

4. What is my favorite sexual position?
Ra - Stargate Soundtrack (I guess any will do as long as I get to go "Raaaaa")

5. Am I good looking?
Love song 4 you - Peter Thompson (yaya!)

6. When am I most happy?
Day by Day - Frank Sinatra

7. How do I act?
Free - Ginny Owens (hopefully not like a hippy)

8. What type of tattoo should I get?
Hero - Nickleback (all I have to do is figure out who my hero is)

9. What is my spiritual animal?
To Zucchabar - Gladiator soundtrack (whee! I pick the leppard)

10. Do I like to Party?
Pirates who don't do anything - Relient K (I sure do!)

11. Where should I move?
Underwater march - Pirates of the Caribbean

12.Will I ever be president?
Falling out - Relient K (a resounding "no")

13. Will I ever learn to fly?
Go ask Alice - Jefferson Aeroplane

14. What is my super power?
Phantom of the Opera - Phantom of the Opera sountrack

15. Will I gradute at the end of this year?
Some Say - Sum 41

"For I dipped into the future, far as the human eye could see, saw the vision of the world and all the wonder that would be"

OMG!!!! I just watched the season finale of Stargate Sg-1 and this is probably the most classic yet hanging episode the writers have come up with. The first season ended with much the same sort of cliff hanger, but this one was so much better. The first half of the episode wasn't bad, but it wasn't amazing - but the second half... that's a completely different story. Call me a pop culture junkie or a procrastinator (the latter is much more apt) but this was an amazing episode. I'm so excited about next season. Wait... I just realized that I don't even know I there is going to be a new season. *gasp* if there is no Stargate, how will I procrastinate????? My academic life is over! Yes I'm being highly dramatic, but this is stress relief from finals. :)

I wasn't very thrilled with the Season Finale of Atlantis, sort of predictable - not too shabby as early cliff hangers go, but not as good as I hoped. I still very excited about it, about both of them. It's a little hard to believe that little old earth has so many people/aliens/high beings after them. Lets see, originally there was the Gou'uld, then the Replicators, now the Ori, and the Wraith on top of that. Isn't that a bit much for galaxy, let alone one planet? I mean come on. Isn't that a little much? Even if it is, I must admit that Stargate is my guilty pleasure. It's my procrastination tool, it makes me feel better when I'm depressed, it's my good friend. It satisfies me when I'm bored and makes me giggle in the dark while I'm hunched over my laptop. I have over 200 episodes of both Stargate and Stargate Sg-1 on my computer. Granted most aren't on my computer, only about 40 are actually on my computer, the rest are on CDs. *grins* yes, I know you think I'm sad.

The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious - the fundamental emotion which stands at the cradle of true art and true science. - Albert Einstein

Today is my birthday

Today is my birthday. My birthday, my day of birth. My mother says she remembers it well. Pain will do that to a person, make you remember that is. Today is my birthday. I don't think I really like having birthdays anymore, they tend to be depressing. My last birthday was even more depressing than today, but today is depressing too. I have gotten two phone calls wishing me happy birthday. One from my mother and one from my friend Ryan in California. Only Tony, Hannah and Lindsey posted "happy birthday" on my facebook. My best friend from home didn't even call me. So much for that. I feel like Eeyore, only I'm trapped in Pigglet's body. Today is my birthday.

New Creation

Last night as I lay in my bed (not dying) praying my thoughts/prayers turned towards a saying by an Early Christian Monk about how God does not grant what he is not asked. I started praying to God asking him to give me strength, endurance, love, drive, patience, wisdom, and that I would be protected from the influence of the world. Soon after I feel asleep, but this afternoon before I climbed into the shower I popped a CD into the stereo in my bathroom. Lo and behold what comes on? Nothing less than Lost and Found's (www.speedwood.com) song "New Creation." This really encouraged me to cling desperately to the Cross and to Jesus, especially in this season of Lent. Lent is not a time to flaunt religious piety, it is a season of humility, fasting, prayer, love, and celebration. We look forward to the celebration of Easter morning and the resurrection of Christ. O how marvelous, o how wonderful is Christ's love for us - he that would give up his own life for all. That the divine would decend to earth with the single purpose of creating a new covenant of saving grace. Back to the prayer: I think this song embodies perfectly the cry I was making to God, this plea that I have to be made over, to be made new.

New Creation
Lost and Found

I want to be a new creation
Born from the fingers of God’s right hand, yeah
I want to be a new creation
God’s gonna make me, God’s gonna make me
God’s gonna make me stand

I want to see like Daniel
I want to love like John
I want to hope like Mary
I want to be the rock that’s built upon

I want to laugh like Sarah
I want to preach like Paul
I want to live like Lazarus
Play my trumpet, watch the crumbling wall

I want to be a new creation
Born from the fingers of God’s right hand, yeah
I want to be a new creation
God’s going to make me stand

I want to trust like Noah
See like the man born blind
I want to pray like Simeon prayed
I want to be the coin that the finder finds

But if I never move the mountains
And if I never part the sea
And if I never slay the giant
God do what you want with me

I want to be a new creation
Born from the fingers of God’s right hand, yeah
I want to be a new creation
God’s gonna make me, God’s going make me
God’s going to make me stand